My mom went to Heaven September 7, 2007
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My mom went to Heaven August 28, 2007 at 10:25 P.M. I was on the phone with my sister when she was going home. My brother and daughter were also in the room with my sister.
When mom took her last breath it was like I was transported back in time to when I was a very little girl. In fact suddenly I was a scared little girl who despretly needed her mommy.
It was the most gut wrenching pain I have ever imagined. I cried so hard that I could not breath and I felt very sick to my stomach. Suddently my whole world was closing in on me and there was nothing I could do to stop it. I felt so helpless as my mom went away.
Then, as I do so well, I put the whole thing in the back of my mind and went on with my life and what I had to do. I had responsibilities to take care of, so I did them. I was very, very happy for my mom who was now dancing in Heaven, but I felt a loss that is undescribable.
Mom’s memorial service was on the 5th of September. We all met at my mom and sister’s house a few days before the big event to plan and get ready. My aunt, cousins, sister, brother, daughter and I were all there telling stories and reminissing about our life and our mom’s.
Then the day came and we all did what we needed to do. It was not until later that night I finally started really thinking about what was really going on and how empty my life seemed without my mom, my very best friend.
This morning we all had to leave to get back to our different states. One by one we all packed up our cars with our suitcases and such, then we said our good byes; giving and hugs promising to stay in touch. It was not until after I had walked outside, shutting the door behind me that I realized everything I knew was now different. As I drove away I realized I driving into a new chapter of my life. Everything that was wrapped up in my identity had changed. Suddenly the chapter in my life titled “My Mom” was over and I drove away feeling scared and alone.
I never would have thought a person could endure such pain, yet people do it everyday. I am so thankful that my mom knew the Lord and that now she is dancing the streets of heaven. There is not a doubt in my heart that my mom is the happiest she has ever been. For that I am grateful to God. As for me, I start a new chapter; I lean on God, I pray for peace and I move on.
Good bye mom, I will see you soon. I love you very much and I already miss you more than words could ever describe.
My Mom is Unresponsive July 26, 2007
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This ride we have been on is winding down. My mom, once so full of life and laughter is now sleeping very deeply. I understand the word they used to describe her is unresponsive.
That means she is not aware of her surroundings. She no longer talks, she no longer laughs. This morning my sister gave her a bath and used lavander shampoo, bubbles and body wash. It will probably be my mom’s last bath.
She is now ready to enter heaven smelling like lavander.
We watch her breathing become increasingly labored. Morbildly waiting for that last breath.
She was upset this morning when she woke up and was not in heaven. I would be really surprised if she woke up again.
My mom, my best friend what will I do without her?
